In the Deep of Winter

The past few weeks have been very challenging to say the least. I have listened to and felt many stories of sudden illness, sudden loss and despair. The brutal storms swept in leaving a trail of destruction and loss in their path. Some loss as small as losing work and needed income and still others suffering the tragic loss of loved ones. Many of us are simply feeling exhausted by the drama, both within the media frenzy and within each of our own personal lives. Even with all that has been happening, I continue receiving countless emails and forwards daily from the spiritual community about new energy portals opening up, and more heaven like energy streaming in to the planet. Why is it, we seem to be facing so many challenges and difficulties among those trying to raise their awareness and obtain a more peaceful life?

It is always difficult to face our own weaknesses and the touchy subjects within our lives that are most likely our life lessons. As we open up to the true spirit of ourselves and invite in the true essence of who we are on a soul level, it is like dropping a bomb on the negative places we have stored in our subconscious minds, in our bodies, the memory that causes us to be the players in our life and this truth of who we are begins to break the stories apart. This can cause confusion, isolation and depression. We are grieving a part of our lives we had become so attached to, we let it define whom we are. When we go into the center of our ourselves and into the super or God consciousness, we begin to rewrite our subconscious that fuels our conscious sate of living, and blast it out into the world and our personal lives, often blowing apart the idea of who we thought we were, or the masquerade of how we want the world to view us. It takes great courage to let go of that facade and begin living from the state of awareness that is at the core of who we are and is the only true place of power.

How often do we hold onto people, worn out relationships and social clutter with the thought or intention that if we do, somehow, somewhere, someone, will understand what it is we are clinging to?

Being who we truly are is a simple concept, but it is not easy to carry out at first. When we become lost, it is usually because we are trying to control something or someone even if that someone, is our self. Be sure that what you want, matches what you need.
Be aware of when you are compromising yourself to get what you think you need or what society has succeeded in convincing you of needing. Is your need to control, controlling you?

Don’t give something away to anyone that you need to survive – and receive a consolation prize in return. It may glitter and be pretty, but do you need it? Or did you need what was lost more? Have you ever noticed the more you claim as your prize the more overwhelmed you feel with the belongings? Ask yourself, what do I stand for? And who is standing with me? You will never be alone if you are standing in truth. The loneliest place is often in the most crowded room.

We are being shook up and it seems as though the very essence of our souls are being put on display. Forced humility through humiliation seems to be commonplace and as we are stripped of our designer lives what we are left with is ourselves and what we are finding along side of us is each other. There is not only a reason for all of this change it is necessary and a great gift when we have the courage to look close enough and to make the some times tough call to decide what is really important in our lives, and make room for ourselves.

~Cynthia